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The answer is a resounding 'yes!'

Bullshit. The more people do this the more it pisses me off. Stop promising things if you can't deliver! I would never promise something I wasn't 100% sure I could deliver. To do that when I don't even have all my ducks in a row? NEVER! Is it really too much to ask of people to extend me that same courtesy? I am so sick of counting on people and them letting me down again and again.

A little late because I completely forgot about it LOL 

January: Dad got a new desktop computer, because the old one was dying.
February: I think my old professor has some kind of voo doo magic that I don't possess
March: Haven't posted here in a month.
April: I was just reading an article in Discover Magazine about galaxy formations.
May: Had a crazy dream last night.
June: I been having weird dreams again, but I can't remember any of them.
July: So, I went to Slovakia and came back since my last post.
August: ----
September: Down: Company president scheduled to visit
October: ----
November: And when I say 'day', I mean DAY.
December: I am so glad it's over.

Wow, there are actually whole months when I haven't posted here at all. If that doesn't tell you the kind of year I had...

So let's see. what happened in 2010. I officially graduated college, I went to Panama, went to commencement ceremony, SIGNED A BOOK CONTRACT,  went to Slovakia, started working at mom's office as a temp, GOT PUBLISHED, passed my driving test and got a license, went to Fevercon in Atlanta, and then went to NYC for a long weekend. In between those I wrote some, read some, got sick a couple times, etc. My brother broke up with his gf for a week, then announced they would be moving in together. He is now officially moved out of this house and living in Dublin, CA. I think he and his gf have a hoarding problem. My dad had surgery on his hand, which thankfully went well and fixed what it needed to fix. My mom got a new computer because her old one died and could not be revived. I got a new cell phone because my old one was on its last breath. 

I got a whole lot of stories out of this year, and not just the written kind. I rode on a zipline, traveled all by myself for the first time ever, met with complete strangers in a city I've never been to, made friendships I never expected, seem to have lost some others, met with celebs (and have the pics to prove it) and collected precious memories every step of the way. I haven't won $200 million in the lottery but no one else did, either. Jackpot for next time is $242 million. I'm gonna try for that one LOL

This year has the potential to be really great. If I don't screw up on a monumental scale I am on my way to becoming the person I want to be. I'm doing pretty well at this being adult thing so far, except I am doing none of it on my own. I'm grateful for the support of everyone around me. Without them my life would be a lot more difficult and extremely unpleasant. 

Happy 2011, everyone!!!

I am so glad it's over. People got so excited and jealous when I told them I'd be going. Frankly, I don't see why. I didn't hate it as much as I thought I would but I didn't like it all that much either. There were some bad parts of the trip but aside from that I was sorta... meh... about all of it. I could have done without the trip and saved my folks a bundle.

( The whole sordid story )

This is one of those days that I will nevereverevernotinamillionyears forget. It's the type of thing people like me dream about for years, and many never achieve it. I'm so happy and excited right  now I'm about ready to jump out of my skin. My hands are shaking, I'm grinning from ear to ear, and I've been jumping around for a good half our now. Just sitting still long enough to type this is *AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH*

I am incredibly lucky. And I will believe that and hold that to be true for the rest of my life. Things like this don't just happen. You hear stories about years and years of trials and tribulations before there is a glimmer of success, and I'm not even at the success/failure mark, but just have my foot in the door. I'm 24 years old. I have been to many places in my young life, met some amazing people, and I know I have MANY more places to see and CROWDS of awesome people to meet still. And today, I have been given a picture of my dream, and told that it is within my grasp.

I cannot tell you how amazing that feels. There are no words to describe it.

Today, I got an acceptance letter from Liquid Silver Books for my novel Blood Moons. The first story in a series of three, which I am still working on.

Foot in the door. Dream within my grasp. The largest hurdle overcome and now, hopefully, a steady climb to where I want to eventually get. I say this cautiously because, while I am bursting with excitement, I also know that any small misstep can send me right back into the gorge to grapple my way to that door again. But I have amazing hope that this will work, and that it is just a first in many future successes.

If you care for me, wish me luck. If not, at least don't wish me bad luck. That's all I can ask.

Hung out with Amber and Jessa today. There were shiny things, and yummy ice cream, store hopping and pictures galore. I don't think I've ever taken so many pics in my life. And amazingly, most of them acem out awesome. I'm sooo sleepy now, but I'd do it all over again tomorrow ^_^

Had a crazy dream last night. Woke up, wanted to write it down, but didn't. Then I fell asleep and forgot it. It bugs me so much that I can't remember! All I can recall is that there were two versions of me... or two parts of me split... Something like that. There was me, and the other me was immortal, much older, maybe goddess-status. And very much evil. It was trying to kill the human me for some reason. There was a bunch of other stuff going on, but this is what stuck in my mind. If I remember more, I will definitely write it down.