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The answer is a resounding 'yes!'

Bullshit. The more people do this the more it pisses me off. Stop promising things if you can't deliver! I would never promise something I wasn't 100% sure I could deliver. To do that when I don't even have all my ducks in a row? NEVER! Is it really too much to ask of people to extend me that same courtesy? I am so sick of counting on people and them letting me down again and again.
Current Mood:
pissed off pissed off
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A little late because I completely forgot about it LOL 

January: Dad got a new desktop computer, because the old one was dying.
February: I think my old professor has some kind of voo doo magic that I don't possess
March: Haven't posted here in a month.
April: I was just reading an article in Discover Magazine about galaxy formations.
May: Had a crazy dream last night.
June: I been having weird dreams again, but I can't remember any of them.
July: So, I went to Slovakia and came back since my last post.
August: ----
September: Down: Company president scheduled to visit
October: ----
November: And when I say 'day', I mean DAY.
December: I am so glad it's over.

Wow, there are actually whole months when I haven't posted here at all. If that doesn't tell you the kind of year I had...

So let's see. what happened in 2010. I officially graduated college, I went to Panama, went to commencement ceremony, SIGNED A BOOK CONTRACT,  went to Slovakia, started working at mom's office as a temp, GOT PUBLISHED, passed my driving test and got a license, went to Fevercon in Atlanta, and then went to NYC for a long weekend. In between those I wrote some, read some, got sick a couple times, etc. My brother broke up with his gf for a week, then announced they would be moving in together. He is now officially moved out of this house and living in Dublin, CA. I think he and his gf have a hoarding problem. My dad had surgery on his hand, which thankfully went well and fixed what it needed to fix. My mom got a new computer because her old one died and could not be revived. I got a new cell phone because my old one was on its last breath. 

I got a whole lot of stories out of this year, and not just the written kind. I rode on a zipline, traveled all by myself for the first time ever, met with complete strangers in a city I've never been to, made friendships I never expected, seem to have lost some others, met with celebs (and have the pics to prove it) and collected precious memories every step of the way. I haven't won $200 million in the lottery but no one else did, either. Jackpot for next time is $242 million. I'm gonna try for that one LOL

This year has the potential to be really great. If I don't screw up on a monumental scale I am on my way to becoming the person I want to be. I'm doing pretty well at this being adult thing so far, except I am doing none of it on my own. I'm grateful for the support of everyone around me. Without them my life would be a lot more difficult and extremely unpleasant. 

Happy 2011, everyone!!!
Current Mood:
cheerful cheerful
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 I was going over the dreams I posted here because I realized that I've sort of stopped keeping a dream journal this year, which really bugs me. I was amused at some of them and many of them I remembered exactly the way I had dreamed them. Then I went to sleep and had another dream for the books. At this point it's easier to post here than in a dream journal but hopefully it will make it there soon.

So I dreamed that I was on some sort of quest for something. And I was the Fire elemental. The others were around but I never saw them. There was a guy leading us to this temple thing that was underground and rigged with booby traps. The door was freaky. Once someone entered, it closed. And it was like a huge slab of rock so no way you can open it again. To keep it open someone had to stand at this pedestal thing and keep their hands on it the whole time. The guy leading us did it for a while, then he started freaking out so I switched places with him.

But the moment I did he changed in appearance and became the bad guy who just wanted to loot the place and he had an army of minions carrying stuff out. I let go of the pillar and the door closed, I think it crushed some folks, and I went deeper into the cave/whatever to find the others. They'd been imprisoned somehow. Just the idea that an elemental was imprisoned was bad enough but my powers were malfunctioning and I couldn't call fire because my hands were cramping or something. I finally got to this 'facility' that looked like a massive lab. One of the chambers was all glass and I went in. It was totally sealed, except for the door. Half the chamber was normal but as soon as I held my hand out in front of me I felt cold wind. I freaked at first but then I reached out again and let the wind cool my hand and I sagged with relief cuz I just found the Air elemental, Sophie. For some reason she couldn't become corporeal. 

I fired up my hands (took me four tries) and basically blew up the glass chamber to set her free. The guys were trapped somewhere too, I had no idea where or how but they were weakened like Sophie, and getting even weaker. Before we could find them I woke up =(
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 This is the first time I've come on here and had ZERO posts on the Friends page O_O

To get the ball rolling again I shall make a very important post about a currently relevant issue. 

My pajama pants are too wide. The elastic waist band could use trimming of a couple of inches except it's sewn into the seam. I have made a hole in said pants today to accommodate the insertion of string to tie them in place. Only to find I have no string. 

And now back to your regularly scheduled programming.

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I am so glad it's over. People got so excited and jealous when I told them I'd be going. Frankly, I don't see why. I didn't hate it as much as I thought I would but I didn't like it all that much either. There were some bad parts of the trip but aside from that I was sorta... meh... about all of it. I could have done without the trip and saved my folks a bundle.

The whole sordid story )
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 And when I say 'day', I mean DAY. Got there around 11am and left around 4 pm. O_O I went with a friend from work who loves crystals and anything metaphysical. She literally stopped at every table and touched everything. Stone or glass bead it didn't matter to her, she had to see. It was fun but exhausting. 

I tried out one of those crystal pads... they're heating pads with crystals sewn into them and they have chair mats, bed mats, and pillow mats. Yeah, they're brilliant but the price tag for the chair mat was $550 and no, I'm not missing a decimal point there. It was insane. But I left when the "reiki healer" came back. I didn't like her for some reason. Eh.

I also got a Shiva Lingam stone. The dude selling them wanted to demo how it worked so he gave my arms a massage with it. My hands were freezing and he kept telling me "Relax, relax... keep breathing." And I laughed and asked him how he knew I wasn't breathing and he said "The energy's not moving. How do you know when you're not breathing." I shrugged. I usually don't notice. But two minutes after the massage my hands went from freezing cold to really warm. 

Got a reading done and it was surprising to say the least. Akashic records something. Apparently your soul has records of everything it's been through and experienced and there are record keepers whom the reader gets answers from. I was curious last time I went but kinda iffy about it. This time we went past with Carilyne and she mentioned her son was missing. The reader turned away, got a notebook and said, "What's his name?" and without asking for money or anything she said she would ask about him. But she asked us to leave while she did it. When we came back Carilyne got a reading first, then went to browse and I got mine. 

Akashic Record Reading )
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 So, I went to Slovakia and came back since my last post. This was the first time I wasn't eager to come back. It was actually a pretty good time, even with my uncle and cousins off to Croatia for 10 days of that. We had insanely hot weather. All of Europe had a heat wave, and they were announcing heat warnings each night during the weather forecast. That part of it I didn't relish. But then, coming back to SF with all it's damned wind also isn't ideal. 

My book is in the process of being edited. I already went over the first version and sent back the second. It should go quickly from now on. Still no word on cover art, though. I'm getting anxious to see it. Hope it's as amazing as I imagine. Been busy with this and editing part 2 this week, but next week I start looking for work, so wish me luck. I'm hoping the situation has improved since I left. I know three weeks isn't long, but one can always hope.

That's the important stuff. Nothing else much new.

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This is one of those days that I will nevereverevernotinamillionyears forget. It's the type of thing people like me dream about for years, and many never achieve it. I'm so happy and excited right  now I'm about ready to jump out of my skin. My hands are shaking, I'm grinning from ear to ear, and I've been jumping around for a good half our now. Just sitting still long enough to type this is *AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH*

I am incredibly lucky. And I will believe that and hold that to be true for the rest of my life. Things like this don't just happen. You hear stories about years and years of trials and tribulations before there is a glimmer of success, and I'm not even at the success/failure mark, but just have my foot in the door. I'm 24 years old. I have been to many places in my young life, met some amazing people, and I know I have MANY more places to see and CROWDS of awesome people to meet still. And today, I have been given a picture of my dream, and told that it is within my grasp.

I cannot tell you how amazing that feels. There are no words to describe it.

Today, I got an acceptance letter from Liquid Silver Books for my novel Blood Moons. The first story in a series of three, which I am still working on.

Foot in the door. Dream within my grasp. The largest hurdle overcome and now, hopefully, a steady climb to where I want to eventually get. I say this cautiously because, while I am bursting with excitement, I also know that any small misstep can send me right back into the gorge to grapple my way to that door again. But I have amazing hope that this will work, and that it is just a first in many future successes.

If you care for me, wish me luck. If not, at least don't wish me bad luck. That's all I can ask.
Current Mood:
bouncy freakishly happy
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Hung out with Amber and Jessa today. There were shiny things, and yummy ice cream, store hopping and pictures galore. I don't think I've ever taken so many pics in my life. And amazingly, most of them acem out awesome. I'm sooo sleepy now, but I'd do it all over again tomorrow ^_^
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Had a crazy dream last night. Woke up, wanted to write it down, but didn't. Then I fell asleep and forgot it. It bugs me so much that I can't remember! All I can recall is that there were two versions of me... or two parts of me split... Something like that. There was me, and the other me was immortal, much older, maybe goddess-status. And very much evil. It was trying to kill the human me for some reason. There was a bunch of other stuff going on, but this is what stuck in my mind. If I remember more, I will definitely write it down.
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